Little Ol' Me

I thought a post about who I am might be fun to write. Just little details about the person that writes randomly on this page. Some are simple facts, some may be a little more complex.

1) I can't whistle. No, really, I can't. I can make this tiny squeal from time to time but really it's just air that comes out of my mouth.

2) I can say the alphabet backwards. Useless ability, but I can, and not too slowly either.

3) I'm married. We have been together for 10 years and married for 1.5 years. It seems like just yesterday we were teenagers starting to date and now we're married and parents and getting older. Which leads to number 4.

4) I am a mom to two wonderful girls. One is almost six the other 5 months. They keep me busy. Boy do they ever. And I know it'll just get busier and busier as they get older.

5) Because of those two girls, I'm tired. So so tired. My baby doesn't really like to nap during the day, so no sneaking in naps for myself. But I make it work. As a result, My house may not be perfect, but it's presentable when it needs to be.

6) I'm overprotective. I know it. I'm the mom who is scared for her child to climb things in case she falls and gets hurts. But she's a trooper and I know I need to back off some, but it's just too hard. At least I know she's safe.

7) I'm shy and this leads into the next few too. Once I become close with someone I am quite open but it's getting to that part that's the hardest.

8) I wish I had more friends. We moved here 6.5 years ago when I was pregnant with my oldest. I have been a stay at home mom ever since. I have found that with no job and not going to school here or anything like that, it is really really hard to meet people. Throw in the shyness, and I spend most of my time with the girls (my husband often works away for a couple weeks at a time).

9) I often feel left out. I found that as soon as I announced that I was expecting this last time that I stopped getting invited anywhere which is sad really. And now with 2, I find it hard to go out without them and often people don't want kids around as they like to escape at some points too. But with a husband working and us having no sitter (again that whole overprotective thing and moving to a place where I knew no one) it leaves me home with just the kids all too often. *please don't take this as me complaining. I love my kids to pieces!!*

10) I've failed at something big in life. My husband tells me I didn't but I think I'll always feel this way. And that's all I'll say about that.

11) I'm scared to put myself out there. Fear of rejection, ridicule, failure. I just don't want to be judged in a negative way and I fear that's what will happen. I know that's not the way to live, but those thoughts are there. I don't believe that anyone wants to fail. That being said...

12) I want to be a published writer. A successful published writer would be better. A writer whose books get made into movies, successful movies, even better. But I'd start with just being published. A dream come true :)

13) I love to read, if #12 didn't give that away already. I use to read like mad, now I read whenever I have some spare time. I suppose I have my whole life to read and I know I will do just that.

14) I want to be fit. I'm working on it! When I can, I do what I can. A little at a time is what is working best for me.

15) Do we need something cheerful? Yellow. I love the color yellow. It's bright and happy. It just makes me smile :)

16) I can tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue. It's a little harder now with a lip piercing but I can do it.

17) Yes, I have my lip pierced. I love it. And hardly ever notice it anymore. Sometimes I think about a second on the other side of my mouth but then realize 1 is probably more than enough.

18) I have tattoos. Love them. Want more. Will get more eventually. I try to put lots of thought into them. Don't want to be stuck with something I hate for life.